It's Been a While

It's been a while since I updated. I don't particularly have a song speaking to me at the moment. But I have had some interesting developments in my social life.

For one, I realized that if someone doesn't appreciate you for all you're worth, they aren't worth being around. Easier said than done, especially if you've grown to love that person despite the fact that they don't see you for all you are.

Two, I'm realizing there there is a BIG difference between LOVING someone and being IN LOVE with someone. I have a lot of love to give and I give it very freely. But I've come to the conclusion that while I love a lot of people with my whole heart, I am currently NOT in love with anyone.

Three, I "met" someone online who seemed, at first, to be a real potential. For those of you who know me, you know I don't like talking on the phone. I warned this potential guy of this at the very beginning. However, in the last 6 days of knowing him, he's left me 13 voicemails. I call that "not respecting my boundaries". On top of that he calls at very weird times. He called me at 3:30am one morning just to say hi. Sweet? Or obsessive? I don't know. But I didn't appreciate being woken up in the wee hours of the morning.

Here's my quandry- is there a happy medium out there somewhere? I'm tired of the guy who only shows me attention when it's a good time for him. I'm tired of the guy who wants to be the center of my attention constantly. I'm ready for the guy who gives me what I need, when I need it and visa versa. Which I suppose sounds really selfish and not to mention complicated. But unfortunately for you guys out there, you kind of need to let the lady lead. Feed off of her. If she's not returning your phone calls, back off a little. If she's texting you frequently, step it up a little. Pay attention to her signals and it really shouldn't be that hard. Then again... maybe it is. I don't know. But don't call her at 3:30am. Ever.